craving color.
this morning on my way to work, passing fields that were quietly and snugly covered in their white blankets of snow, i was overwhelmed with a craving for the shout of color!
bright,
vivid,
infusing,
color!
i was thinking of the colors i craved - i began with the bluest blue of the sky - because that color i can see wonderfully today! and last night - sunset was beautiful - but after sunset is usually my favorite as the blue deepens and changes and the stars burst out their sparkley contrast to the ever-sleepier blue. the sky's blue makes me feel peaceful, refreshed, thankful.
then i thought of green - like the wonderful apple green of my kitchen! the freshness, the hope of green is what i love! it wakes me up, it calls me to pay attention, it speaks of newness and life, of growth and health. i was wondering how long it will take this ten inches of white to melt away so i can see again the sprouting green of my yard coming back to life. i am in anticipation of green!
and i thought of yellow - the brightness of the sun (which isn't really yellow, many times, actually - but, just roll with me, here) - i am so thankful for the sunshine that has seemed to say "just kidding" after the snow we got last week. it's comforting, like God hasn't really forgotten about spring. (cuz i started to think maybe...) yellow makes me think of birds and flowers and lightness and joy. the deepest parts of my soul crave lightness and joy this week.
it seems to me that color is intrinsically connected to promise. maybe because of the rainbow God used as a covenant with noah that he would never again flood the earth - i don't know. but i am craving and savoring promise as much as i am craving color. how many corners of darkness i've sat in this week. how my face wanted a break from hot tears. how my mind desperately wanted freedom from fear and anxiety, and how thinking of color and longing for it seems so much a similar feeling to me.
God spoke to me in that this morning. he reminded me that color is made more beautiful because of it's contrast to dark. in my devotional reading this week i read the following:"There is nothing more wearying to the eye than perpetual sunshine, and the same is true spiritually. The valley of the shadow gives us time to reflect, and we learn to praise God for the valley because in it our soul was restored in its communion with God. God gives us a new revelation of His kindness in the valley of the shadow." (Oswald Chambers)
and so even the promise of who God is and who i am in him and the salvation he brings to my soul - "my comfort in my suffering is this; your promise preserves my life" (ps. 119) - his promise is life in spite of the death i feel, his promise is light in the darkness i've known, his promise is hope in the despair of my soul - it is forgiveness of my sin, it is freedom from my guilt and the death i deserve, it is light, it is joy, it is resurrection...
it is the color i crave.
oh God, that i would see the color of you painted over my sadness this week.
looking for color,
b.
this morning on my way to work, passing fields that were quietly and snugly covered in their white blankets of snow, i was overwhelmed with a craving for the shout of color!
bright,
vivid,
infusing,
color!
i was thinking of the colors i craved - i began with the bluest blue of the sky - because that color i can see wonderfully today! and last night - sunset was beautiful - but after sunset is usually my favorite as the blue deepens and changes and the stars burst out their sparkley contrast to the ever-sleepier blue. the sky's blue makes me feel peaceful, refreshed, thankful.
then i thought of green - like the wonderful apple green of my kitchen! the freshness, the hope of green is what i love! it wakes me up, it calls me to pay attention, it speaks of newness and life, of growth and health. i was wondering how long it will take this ten inches of white to melt away so i can see again the sprouting green of my yard coming back to life. i am in anticipation of green!
and i thought of yellow - the brightness of the sun (which isn't really yellow, many times, actually - but, just roll with me, here) - i am so thankful for the sunshine that has seemed to say "just kidding" after the snow we got last week. it's comforting, like God hasn't really forgotten about spring. (cuz i started to think maybe...) yellow makes me think of birds and flowers and lightness and joy. the deepest parts of my soul crave lightness and joy this week.
it seems to me that color is intrinsically connected to promise. maybe because of the rainbow God used as a covenant with noah that he would never again flood the earth - i don't know. but i am craving and savoring promise as much as i am craving color. how many corners of darkness i've sat in this week. how my face wanted a break from hot tears. how my mind desperately wanted freedom from fear and anxiety, and how thinking of color and longing for it seems so much a similar feeling to me.
God spoke to me in that this morning. he reminded me that color is made more beautiful because of it's contrast to dark. in my devotional reading this week i read the following:"There is nothing more wearying to the eye than perpetual sunshine, and the same is true spiritually. The valley of the shadow gives us time to reflect, and we learn to praise God for the valley because in it our soul was restored in its communion with God. God gives us a new revelation of His kindness in the valley of the shadow." (Oswald Chambers) and so even the promise of who God is and who i am in him and the salvation he brings to my soul - "my comfort in my suffering is this; your promise preserves my life" (ps. 119) - his promise is life in spite of the death i feel, his promise is light in the darkness i've known, his promise is hope in the despair of my soul - it is forgiveness of my sin, it is freedom from my guilt and the death i deserve, it is light, it is joy, it is resurrection...
it is the color i crave.
oh God, that i would see the color of you painted over my sadness this week.
looking for color,
b.
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